The Face of Being Human

This will probably be long. Feel free to pass on by if that isn’t your thing.

I have refrained from sharing very much or posting and commenting and have been trying to use more time to pray, seek, trust, and examine my own heart. And these things are on my heart today. I am grateful, and God is so good. I feel blessed to know a few who live as an inspiration to others like me in what it means to live according to the convictions of their consciences before God. If we are truly ‘in Christ’ (Christian), God’s word teaches that every man should live according to his conscience because it is the Holy Spirit within us, who speaks to our consciences.
The Bible has so many mentions of the countenance of man. For this it stands to reason that God has placed special significance to it; the human face, its expression, and our countenance. We were created in His own image.
When someone is rescued from being stranded, or sick, or even shut in due to a storm, the expression of enormous relief is a familiar one, “I haven’t seen another face in __ (months, weeks, days)!!!” Or this one: “It’s SO GOOD just to see another FACE!”
When I have to go to the store to get necessities (and i mean, when i absolutely cannot avoid it or we will go hungry), I look at the eyes of others just to see if there are any like mine with tears in them who might be desperately missing connection that once took place: kind smile from someone else, a warm hello, a conversation in the checkout line….the spark of light exchanged to and from another soul in this dark world. But nothing. Apathy. Hate. Ignorance. Avoidance. Actual selfishness. Once in a while I do recognize depression, loss of will, hopelessness, and yes, tears. I am convinced absence of another human face is why prisoners placed in isolation lose their minds.
So I was discouraged last night listening to another Christian leader rebuking other believers for not wearing masks, because I know in my own convictions the evil agenda behind this. People are twisting it and playing right into the evil. So, I was looking up some scriptures this morning before and feel led to share them..
((I understand you may disagree, that is ok too. You can choose to mock me, to talk about me and make me out to be a fool. I am not a perfect person. I made wrong turns in this life, I aim to do better, I am capable of error, i struggle with things, and I don’t consider myself higher or better than you. But I am who I am by the grace of God and not of my own merit. Jesus Christ is Lord, and every day I try to love Him in a manner that is worthy of the sacrifice He made to save me. If you have read this far, and you find that your face is twisted like the reflection of a fun-house-mirror with resentment & laughing scorn for me… then well, you have your own convictions, and I have mine.))
I am not the judge so I will leave that up to God. But whether or not you are struggling with this, like I am, whoever you are reading this, I’m sending love out & prayers up, from NY.

“But I fear, lest by any means, as the serpent beguiled Eve through his subtilty, so your minds should be corrupted from the simplicity that is in Christ. For if he that cometh preacheth another Jesus, whom we have not preached, or if ye receive another spirit, which ye have not received, or another gospel, which ye have not accepted, ye might well bear with him. But what I do, that I will do, that I may cut off occasion from them which desire occasion; that wherein they glory, they may be found even as we. For such are false apostles, deceitful workers, transforming themselves into the apostles of Christ. And no marvel; for Satan himself is transformed into an angel of light. Therefore it is no great thing if his ministers also be transformed as the ministers of righteousness; whose end shall be according to their works. Seeing that many glory after the flesh, I will glory also. For ye suffer fools gladly, seeing ye yourselves are wise. For ye suffer, if a man bring you into bondage, if a man devour you, if a man take of you, if a man exalt himself, if a man smite you on the face. Are they ministers of Christ? (I speak as a fool) I am more; in labours more abundant, in stripes above measure, in prisons more frequent, in deaths oft. Of the Jews five times received I forty stripes save one. Thrice was I beaten with rods, once was I stoned, thrice I suffered shipwreck, a night and a day I have been in the deep; In journeyings often, in perils of waters, in perils of robbers, in perils by mine own countrymen, in perils by the heathen, in perils in the city, in perils in the wilderness, in perils in the sea, in perils among false brethren; In weariness and painfulness, in watchings often, in hunger and thirst, in fastings often, in cold and nakedness. If I must needs glory, I will glory of the things which concern mine infirmities. The God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, which is blessed for evermore, knoweth that I lie not. In Damascus the governor under Aretas the king kept the city of the Damascenes with a garrison, desirous to apprehend me: And through a window in a basket was I let down by the wall, and escaped his hands.”
From 2 Corinthians chapter 11 KJV

“And he sent, and brought him in. Now he was ruddy, and withal of a beautiful countenance, and goodly to look to. And the Lord said, Arise, anoint him: for this is he.”
1 Samuel 16:12 KJV

“There be many that say, Who will shew us any good? Lord , lift thou up the light of thy countenance upon us.
Psalms 4:6 KJV

“In him was life; and the life was the light of men. That was the true Light, which lighteth every man that cometh into the world.”
John 1:4‭, ‬9 KJV

“Iron sharpeneth iron; so a man sharpeneth the countenance of his friend.”
Proverbs 27:17 KJV

“Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do men light a candle, and put it under a bushel, but on a candlestick; and it giveth light unto all that are in the house. Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.”
Matthew 5:14‭-‬16 KJV

“The Lord make his face shine upon thee, and be gracious unto thee: The Lord lift up his countenance upon thee, and give thee peace.”
Numbers 6:25‭-‬26 KJV

“Moreover when ye fast, be not, as the hypocrites, of a sad countenance: for they disfigure their faces, that they may appear unto men to fast. Verily I say unto you, They have their reward.”
Matthew 6:16 KJV

“O my dove, that art in the clefts of the rock, in the secret places of the stairs, let me see thy countenance, let me hear thy voice; for sweet is thy voice, and thy countenance is comely.”
Song of Solomon 2:14 KJV

“Then let our countenances be looked upon before thee, and the countenance of the children that eat of the portion of the king’s meat: and as thou seest, deal with thy servants.”
Daniel 1:13 KJV

“A merry heart maketh a cheerful countenance: but by sorrow of the heart the spirit is broken.”
Proverbs 15:13 KJV

“And he settled his countenance stedfastly, until he was ashamed: and the man of God wept.”
2 Kings 8:11 KJV

“Sorrow is better than laughter: for by the sadness of the countenance the heart is made better.”
Ecclesiastes 7:3 KJV

“And she said, Let thine handmaid find grace in thy sight. So the woman went her way, and did eat, and her countenance was no more sad.”
1 Samuel 1:18 kjv

“Now the name of the man was Nabal; and the name of his wife Abigail: and she was a woman of good understanding, and of a beautiful countenance: but the man was churlish and evil in his doings; and he was of the house of Caleb.”
1 Samuel 25:3 KJV

“Now the queen, by reason of the words of the king and his Lords, came into the banquet house: and the queen spake and said, O king, live for ever: let not thy thoughts trouble thee, nor let thy countenance be changed”
Daniel 5:10 KJV

“Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? hope in God: for I shall yet praise him, who is the health of my countenance, and my God.”
Psalms 43:5 KJV

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Seeing the World As My Old Hometown: a Switch in Focus

I moved away from my old hometown during high school. When I would return to visit, I discovered a strange but freeing phenomenon taking place in my perception. Somehow it seemed smaller, almost temporal. It became benign and non-threatening. The interpersonal conflicts and dramas that existed there somehow lost their weight and seemed nothing more than a passing wind. Did something change in the place I used to call home? Or, did something change in me? No, the people were the same. I had changed.

Having moved back many years ago, it has been as if that perception steadily waned over time. Eventually the smallness, the loss of power these surroundings had to affect me internally, seemed to vanish, and I instead, became small. Did something change in me? Or did something change in the place I called my home? No, the people were all the same. I had changed.

The other day it struck me profoundly: I noticed in a familiar but new way the gaping chasm between this broken-down and temporary place and the reality of eternity that exists beyond this dying flesh-and-concrete prison. Not only in my hometown, but this world. And it was freeing

Jesus said ” Now learn this lesson from the fig tree: As soon as its young shoots become tender and it puts out its leaves, you know that summer is near; so you, too, when you see all these things [taking place], know for certain that He is near, right at the door. I assure you and most solemnly say to you, this generation [the people living when these signs and events begin] will not pass away until all these things take place. Heaven and earth [as now known] will pass away, but My words will not pass away.”
(Matthew 24:32-35 Amp )

“For we are strangers before you and sojourners, as all our fathers were. Our days on the earth are like a shadow, and there is no abiding.” (1 Chronicles 29:15)

The word of God makes a clear distinction between His kingdom and the systems or culture of this world. In Hebrews 11 we read a collective testimony of what it means to walk by faith: those who have “gone off the deep end” according to the standards of this world.


” By faith Abraham, when he was called [by God], obeyed by going to a place which he was to receive as an inheritance; and he went, not knowing where he was going. By faith he lived as a foreigner in the promised land, as in a strange land, living in tents [as nomads] with Isaac and Jacob, who were fellow heirs of the same promise.

For he was [waiting expectantly and confidently] looking forward to the city which has foundations, [an eternal, heavenly city] whose architect and builder is God.

All these died in faith [guided and sustained by it], without receiving the [tangible fulfillment of God’s] promises, only having seen (anticipated) them and having welcomed them from a distance, and having acknowledged that they were strangers and exiles on the earth.

Now those who say such things make it clear that they are looking for a country of their own. And if they had been thinking of that country from which they departed [as their true home], they would have had [a continuing] opportunity to return. But the truth is that they were longing for a better country, that is, a heavenly one.

For that reason God is not ashamed [of them or] to be called their God [even to be surnamed their God—the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob]; for He has prepared a city for them.

By faith Moses, after his birth, was hidden for three months by his parents, because they saw he was a beautiful and divinely favored child; and they were not afraid of the king’s (Pharaoh’s) decree. By faith Moses, when he had grown up, refused to be called the son of Pharaoh’s daughter, because he preferred to endure the hardship of the people of God rather than to enjoy the passing pleasures of sin. He considered the reproach of the Christ [that is, the rebuke he would suffer for his faithful obedience to God] to be greater wealth than all the treasures of Egypt; for he looked ahead to the reward [promised by God]. By faith he left Egypt, being unafraid of the wrath of the king; for he endured [steadfastly], as seeing Him who is unseen.

And what more shall I say? For time will fail me if I tell of Gideon, Barak, Samson, Jephthah, of David and Samuel and the prophets, who by faith [that is, with an enduring trust in God and His promises] subdued kingdoms, administered justice, obtained promised blessings, closed the mouths of lions, extinguished the power of [raging] fire, escaped the edge of the sword, out of weakness were made strong, became mighty and unbeatable in battle, putting enemy forces to flight. Women received back their dead by resurrection; and others were tortured [to death], refusing to accept release [offered on the condition of denying their faith], so that they would be resurrected to a better life; and others experienced the trial of mocking and scourging [amid torture], and even chains and imprisonment. They were stoned [to death], they were sawn in two, they were lured with tempting offers [to renounce their faith], they were put to death by the sword; they went about wrapped in the skins of sheep and goats, utterly destitute, oppressed, cruelly treated (people of whom the world was not worthy), wandering in deserts and mountains and [living in] caves and holes in the ground.” (Hebrews 11 AMP )

Those who live as citizens of the kingdom of God will walk inversely proportionate to those who serve worldly appetites. There is a glaring contrast.

“For there are many, of whom I have often told you, and now tell you even with tears, who live as enemies of the cross of Christ [rejecting and opposing His way of salvation], whose fate is destruction, whose god is their belly [their worldly appetite, their sensuality, their vanity], and whose glory is in their shame—who focus their mind on earthly and temporal things. But [we are different, because] our citizenship is in heaven. And from there we eagerly await [the coming of] the Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ;”
(Philippians 3:18‭-‬20)

“Our citizenship is in heaven”… …not this world, not the USA, not a state, or even a hometown. We are exiles and strangers here: foreigners in a strange land. We don’t belong here, but we do have a mission.


Has this world lost it’s grip on you? Have you “gone off the deep end” where God will part the waters? Are you seeing the temporary-ness and dying condition of this world? Is the reality of everlasting life “stamped on your eyeballs”? Can you hear the Lord’s heart to save souls right now? Or are you staying safe in shallow pools of self-preservation, placing in your heart the customs and decrees of this world above being completely surrendered and dependent upon Jesus Christ? The question I’ve been asking myself is, am I looking for a safe place to escape or am I living with the confidence in His promise of my place in everlasting Life?

“And the world is passing away along with its desires, but whoever does the will of God abides forever” (1John 2:17)

“Do not let your heart be troubled (afraid, cowardly). Believe [confidently] in God and trust in Him, [have faith, hold on to it, rely on it, keep going and] believe also in Me. In My Father’s house are many dwelling places. If it were not so, I would have told you, because I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back again and I will take you to Myself, so that where I am you may be also. And [to the place] where I am going, you know the way.” Thomas said to Him, “Lord, we do not know where You are going; so how can we know the way?” Jesus said to him, “ I am the [only] Way [to God] and the [real] Truth and the [real] Life; no one comes to the Father but through Me.”
(John 14:1‭-‬6 AMP)

How relevant are these warnings in Scripture becoming as time marches on toward the final days? :

“Enter by the narrow gate. For the gate is wide and the way is easy that leads to destruction, and those who enter by it are many.” (Matthew 7:13)

“See to it that no one takes you captive through philosophy and empty deception, according to the tradition of mere men, following the elementary principles of this world, rather than following [the truth of] Christ.”
(Colossians 2:8)

“You adulterous people! Do you not know that friendship with the world is enmity with God? Therefore whoever wishes to be a friend of the world makes himself an enemy of God.” (James 4:4)

“Do not love the world or the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For all that is in the world—the desires of the flesh and the desires of the eyes and pride in possessions—is not from the Father but is from the world” (1 John 2:15-16)

Finally, as the condition of this world deteriorates further, we need to be meditating and standing upon the precious and powerful promises in God’s word. These are verses to remind ourselves of daily:

“By which he has granted to us his precious and very great promises, so that through them you may become partakers of the divine nature, having escaped from the corruption that is in the world because of sinful desire.” (2 Peter 1:4)

“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.” (John 14:27)

“I will not leave you as orphans [comfortless, bereaved, and helpless]; I will come [back] to you. After a little while the world will no longer see Me, but you will see Me; because I live, you will live also. On that day [when that time comes] you will know for yourselves that I am in My Father, and you are in Me, and I am in you.
(John 14:18‭-‬20 AMP)

“Again Jesus spoke to them, saying, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.””(John 8:12)

“But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus his Son cleanses us from all sin.” (1 John 1:7)

“I assure you and most solemnly say to you, that you will weep and grieve [in great mourning], but the world will rejoice. You will be sorrowful, but your sorrow will be turned into joy. A woman, when she is in labor, has pain because her time [to give birth] has come; but when she has given birth to the child, she no longer remembers the anguish because of her joy that a child has come into the world. So for now you are in grief; but I will see you again, and [then] your hearts will rejoice, and no one will take away from you your [great] joy. In that day you will not [need to] ask Me about anything. I assure you and most solemnly say to you, whatever you ask the Father in My name [as My representative], He will give you.”
(John 16:20‭-‬23 AMP)

The cost of being a disciple of Jesus Christ includes “moving out” of this world spiritually, looking at the world as your old hometown. With the awareness you belong to an entirely different kingdom, the old one no longer has the power to affect you internally: it has lost it’s grip on you. To the world, you will have lost your grip. Your grip on status, on money, possessions, habits, reputation, and on sin.

“For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world and forfeits his soul? Or what shall a man give in return for his soul?” Matthew 16:26)

“I have given them your word, and the world has hated them because they are not of the world, just as I am not of the world. I do not ask that you take them out of the world, but that you keep them from the evil one. They are not of the world, just as I am not of the world.” (John 17:14-16)

While we may temporarily live here, this world is truly not our home. How important is it to know that our souls are sealed for heaven? 1 John 5:19 reads that the whole world lies in the power of the evil one, in wickedness. We can see in 2 corinthians 4:4 that the god of this world is Satan, and he has blinded the minds of those who do not believe the gospel.

If you have not yet come to God for the forgiveness of your sins , confessed Jesus Christ as Lord, and believed that God has raised Him from the dead, please know He is waiting for you with open arms. Won’t you call upon Him? Today is the day He can give you a new heart, light in the darkness, eyes that see, power to be called a son or daughter of God, and everlasting life. Make this world your old hometown. Become a part of the Kingdom of Heaven.

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Compilation of Research, Articles, and Findings that Contradict the Covid19 lock-down/ Testing & Tracking/ Mask hysteria

Compilation of Research, Articles, and findings from physicians that contradict the Covid19 lockdown/mask hysteria (including: asymptomatic carriers are not shown to transmit the illness). This list is not exhaustive, and not yet organized into the many separate categories existing in researching the topic of the Covid19 scandal. But anyway how was your day?

>>>Reported here is a case study of the asymptomatic patient and present clinical characteristics of 455 contacts, of which none contacted the illness. https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/32513410/

>>>Asymptomatic COVID-19 Spread Deemed ‘Rare,’ WHO Says (WHO has recently retracted these findings) https://www.medscape.com/viewarticle/931984?src=mkm_covid_update_200608_mscpedit_&uac=341523ST&impID=2411974&faf=1&fbclid=IwAR0j4hLz_3H-dPF3jZChrx1kjTsTSZgWXOTxVK5nq9gc7bZeVEEpaY-aCtc


>>>PCR Tests are not only unreliable, they are fraudulent. “PCR detects a very small segment of the nucleic acid which is part of a virus itself. The specific fragment detected is determined by the somewhat arbitrary choice of DNA primers used which become the ends of the amplified fragment.” “ If things were done right, “infection” would be a far cry from a positive PCR test. You have to have a whopping amount of any organism to cause symptoms. Huge amounts of it,” Dr. David Rasnick, bio-chemist, protease developer, and former founder of an EM lab called Viral Forensics told me. “You don’t start with testing; you start with listening to the lungs. I’m skeptical that a PRC test is ever true. It’s a great scientific research tool. It’s a horrible tool for clinical medicine. 30% of your infected cells have been killed before you show symptoms. By the time you show symptoms…the dead cells are generating the symptoms.” …
I asked Dr. Rasnick what advice he has for people who want to be tested for COVID-19.“Don’t do it, I say, when people ask me,” he replies. “No healthy person should be tested. It means nothing but it can destroy your life, make you absolutely miserable.” https://uncoverdc.com/2020/04/07/was-the-covid-19-test-meant-to-detect-a-virus/?fbclid=IwAR1sf9RMhiQkJilePqpF34sF5RAOabb20drgUgdOoxTBoWh3tbN7-pgq66k

>>>Erin Marie Olszewski is a Nurse-turned-investigative journalist, who has spent the last few months on the frontlines of the coronavirus pandemic: https://youtu.be/UIDsKdeFOmQ

>>>Scientific theory comparison: Exosomes Vs. Virus theory. Shoud I take the Covid19 Test? https://youtu.be/V1Im7jsW9_Y

>>>“These estimates suggest misattribution of COVID-19 deaths to other respiratory illnesses (eg, pneumonia) or to nonrespiratory causes reflecting complications of COVID-19 (eg, coagulopathy, myocarditis). Few excess deaths involved pneumonia or influenza as underlying causes.“ https://jamanetwork.com/journals/jama/fullarticle/2768086…


>>>To make conclusions leading to lockdown and mask wearing for all, you must look at viable virus in fine aerosol in non-symptomatic people. This post contains some interesting findings in the photos: https://www.facebook.com/jeremy.shaft/posts/10157397738485998?hc_location=ufi

>>>Cloth masks can increase infection: Over 3 times the risk of contracting influenza like illness if cloth mask is used https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4420971/…

>>>Penetration of cloth masks by particles was almost 97% compared to medical masks with 44%
https://www.sciencedaily.com/releas…/2015/…/150422121724.htm
(Link to original post; https://www.facebook.com/208101502/posts/10101790882675642/?d=n )


>>>”This study is the first RCT of cloth masks, and the results in caution against the use of cloth masks. This is an important finding to inform occupational health and safety. Moisture retention, reuse of cloth masks and poor filtration may result in increased risk of infection. Further research is needed to inform the widespread use of cloth masks globally. However, as a precautionary measure, cloth masks should not be recommended for HCWs, particularly in high-risk situations, and guidelines need to be updated.”
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4420971/…
https://bmjopen.bmj.com/content/5/4/e006577.full
https://www.cidrap.umn.edu/…/data-do-not-back-cloth-masks-l…


>>>From the WHO: “There is limited evidence that wearing a medical mask by healthy individuals in the households or among contacts of a sick patient, or among attendees of mass gatherings may be beneficial as a preventive measure.14-23 However, there is currently no evidence that wearing a mask (whether medical or other types) by healthy persons in the wider community setting, including universal community masking, can prevent them from infection with respiratory viruses, including COVID-19.” (Link no longer searchable: redacted)


>>>Prolonged wearing of the surgical mask causes loss of intellect potential and cognitive performance due to a decrease in blood oxygen and subsequent brain hypoxia. Note – some changes may be irreversible. https://www.who.int/…/advice-on-the-use-of-masks-in-the-com…


>>>From JAMA in March 2020: “Face masks should be used only by individuals who have symptoms of respiratory infection such as coughing, sneezing, or, in some cases, fever. Face masks should also be worn by health care workers, by individuals who are taking care of or are in close contact with people who have respiratory infections, or otherwise as directed by a doctor. Face masks should not be worn by healthy individuals to protect themselves from acquiring respiratory infection because there is no evidence to suggest that face masks worn by healthy individuals are effective in preventing people from becoming ill. Face masks should be reserved for those who need them because masks can be in short supply during periods of widespread respiratory infection. Because N95 respirators require special fit testing, they are not recommended for use by the general public.”
https://jamanetwork.com/journals/jama/fullarticle/2762694


>>>”Report on surgical mask induced deoxygenation during major surgery” https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/18500410


>>>”Seventy percent of the patients showed a reduction in partial pressure of oxygen (PaO2), and 19% developed various degrees of hypoxemia. Wearing an N95 mask significantly reduced the PaO2 level” https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/15340662


>>>”Wearing N95 masks results in hypooxygenemia and hypercapnia which reduce working efficiency and the ability to make correct decision.”
“Medical staff are at increased risk of getting ‘Severe acute respiratory syndrome’ (SARS), and wearing N95 masks is highly recommended by experts worldwide. However, dizziness, headache, and short of breath are commonly experienced by the medical staff wearing N95 masks. The ability to make correct decision may be hampered, too.”
https://clinicaltrials.gov/ct2/show/NCT00173017
https://www.researchgate.net/…/7332926_Headaches_and_the_N9…

>>>Chronic hypoxia-hypercapnia influences cognitive function” https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/18331781

>>>”Hypercapnia status has been shown to predict mild cognitive impairment” https://www.nature.com/articles/s41598-018-35797-3
Chronic hypoxia – hypercapnia has been seen as a cause of cognitive impairment https://www.atsjournals.org/…/fu…/10.1164/ajrccm.186.12.1307
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/31479137
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/26952529
https://bmjopen.bmj.com/content/5/4/e006577#T1

>>>updated to find information on cloth mask particle filtration
Fit testing matters less vs it’s an N95 mask: https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/21477136

>>>Masks don’t seem to impact family infection as much: https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/28039289

>>>Gotta use the mask and do all the other things too: https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/22188875


>>>Medical or N95 isn’t that different: https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/31479137

What kills things on masks? https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/29855107: yes: bleach, UVC,autoclave, TERC no: UVA, alcohol
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/29678452: UVGI is a yes
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/25806411 UVGI works, and mask still good, but much more fragile (90% more)
https://journals.plos.org/plosone/article…

>>>We need more studies https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/25858901

>>>This might be where we get the guidance from: https://www8.nationalacademies.org/onpinews/newsitem.aspx…

>>>Lancet: “We have no uniform policy”: https://www.thelancet.com/…/PIIS2213-2600(20)30134…/fulltext


>>>History of surgical masks: https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/5333967


>>>This paper was actually a great read. Basically walks up to the invention of plastic masks with filters. You can’t get a fabric mask wet, and it’s much less effective without a lining (in the citation they were using packed cotton as the best lining)
The take home wrt cloth masks stopping viral particles of ~120 nm or cough particles less than 1 um:
Distribution of particle sizes in a cough maxes out at ~9
Distribution of particle sizes in a cough maxes out at ~900 nm: https://bmcpulmmed.biomedcentral.com/…/10.1…/1471-2466-12-11
Most particles under 1 um: Fabian P, Mcdevitt JJ, Dehaan WH et al. (2008) Influenza virus in human exhaled breath: an observational study.

>>>Cloth masks not very efficient with small particles (in some cases negligible filtering): https://bmjopen.bmj.com/content/5/4/e006577.full: Laboratory tests showed the penetration of particles through the cloth masks to be very high (97%) compared with medical masks (44%) (used in trial) and 3M 9320 N95 (<0.01%), 3M Vflex 9105 N95 (0.1%).

>>>Highly recommend reading this one- particle size breakdown and fabric differences for cloth masks and particle penetration: https://doi.org/10.1093/annhyg/meq044


>>>https://www.nature.com/articles/s41591-020-0843-2
In conclusion, both surgical and cotton masks seem to be ineffective in preventing the dissemination of SARS–CoV-2 from the coughs of patients with COVID-19 to the environment and external mask surface. https://annals.org/…/effectiveness-surgical-cotton-masks-bl…

>>>Mask wearing can increase infection. Most people do not even know how to wear or use them. https://www.news-medical.net/…/Wearing-masks-may-increase-y…

>>>US surgeon general warns against wearing face coverings.
https://www.businessinsider.com/americans-dont-need-masks-p…
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/32513410/
https://www.rcreader.com/sites/default/files/Denis%20G.%20Rancourt%20PhD%20April
%202020%20%22Masks%20Don’t%20Work:%20A%20review%20of%20science%20relevant
%20to%20COVID-19%20social%20policy%22.pdf
https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/new-study-questions-the-effectiveness-of-masks
-against-sars-cov-2#More-virus-on-outer-mask-surfaces

>>>Fauci’s admission himself covid mortality on part with seasonal influenza :
https://www.nejm.org/doi/full/10.1056…

>>>CDC’s numbers: https://www.cdc.gov/flu/about/burden/…
https://www.cdc.gov/nchs/data/health_policy/Provisional-Death-Counts-COVID-19-Pneumonia
-and-Influenza.pdf

>>>Columbia University: Psychological Harms of Face Masks:
“Many young children burst into tears or recoil when someone wearing a mask approaches.
By putting on masks, we take away information that makes it especially difficult
for children to recognize others and read emotional signals, which is unsettling and
disconcerting.” https://www.cugmhp.org/five-on-friday/why-a-mask-is-not- just-a- mask/?
fbclid=IwAR1_h_ykyuIOzQ9WqA_u_muupA8D8UwOg vnhlwcjoIw_CReHuKSPPmy2wC4

>>>New England Journal of Medicine:
“We know that wearing a mask outside health care facilities offers little, if any, protection from
infection.” https://www.nejm.org/doi/full/10.1056/NEJMp2006372

>>>CAL-OSHA Regulations:
”Cloth face coverings do not protect against COVD -19”
https://dir.ca.gov/dosh/coronavirus/COVID-19-Infection- Prevention-in-Logistics.pdf

>>>California Department of Health:
“Face coverings may increase risk if users reduce their use of strong defenses.”

>>>”There is limited evidence to suggest that use of cloth face coverings by the public during a
pandemic could help reduce disease transmission.” https://www.cdph.ca.gov/Programs/CID
/DCDC/Pages/Face- Coverings-Guidance.aspx

>>>FDA – “Even a properly fitted N95 mask does not prevent illness or death”
https://web.archive.org/web/20200516235249/https:/www. fda.gov/medical-devices/
personal-protective-equipment- infection-control/n95-respirators-and-surgical-masks-face-
masks

>>>Neurosurgeon Dr. Russell Blaylock :
”There is no scientific evidence that masks are effective. If you are not sick, you should not wear a face mask.” https://technocracy.news/blaylock-face-masks-pose-serious- risks-to-the-healthy/
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3879648/

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History Lesson

To both admit the evil behind The Holocaust succeeded for such a length of time and was carried out by human men in authority, and to possess human necessity to view the world and its governing bodies as morally altruistic, are two realities nearly impossible to reconcile.

But to deny, consciously or subconsciously, that this same evil exists in our authoritative constructs today is to fortify its re-emergence of a much grander race of people (whether through will or through ignorance), the human race. It is the evil
which intends to dehumanize us, to silence us, to enslave us, and ultimately exterminate us.

And make no mistake; the silence eminating from our own unawareness, apathy, and fear will again prove no less than complicit to it.

So with pleading I ask, let’s take a walk through history and see the various phases in which these events were orchestrated.

First, some interesting groundwork.

● A task force of health officials given equal authority to government was implemented as “advisory staff” to ensure public safety while removing human rights under new health “guidelines”:

●Nazi Party’s Committee on Public Health was established in the years leading up to the Holocaust in which
the focus of medicine shifted from private practice to public health, and from treating disease to preventable health care. With this, doctors succumbed to political pressure to see themselves as more responsible for the public health of the nation than for the individual health of the patient. The Nazi Party’s Committee on Public Health enacted “reforms” in which doctors’ roles changed from that of advocates, advisers, and partners of the patient, to partners and employees of the state.

-In July 1933 – Nazis pass law allowing for forced sterilization of those found by a Hereditary Health Court to have genetic defects.

-For the greater good of public health, in June 26, 1935 – Nazis pass law allowing forced abortions on women to prevent them from passing on hereditary diseases. Legal authority was granted, and at the discretion of Health Court officials, a woman would be classified as a disease risk regardless if she had existing healthy children.
-Legal obligation of reporting requirements regarding such diseases risks were placed upon doctors under penalty of loss of practice, fines, and imprisonment, eroding doctor-patient confidentiality.

– Late 1941, Nazi- occupied Poland, Warsaw Ghetto (first sealed off on November 15, 1940) quarantined Jews under the banner of preventing the spread of Typhus, which all Jews were told to be carriers and transmitters of the outbreak. Jost Walbaum, the medical chief for occupied Poland, gave the following retort: “…Shooting will be employed when one comes across a Jew outside the ghetto without special permission…We have one and only one responsibility, that the German people are not infected and endangered by these parasites. For that any means must be right.”

-In a 1993 article for The Freeman, Dr. Marc S. Micozzi wrote: “No profession in Germany became so numerically attached to National Socialism in both its leadership and membership as was the medical profession,” speaking about the lethal elixir of state healthcare and the culture of death it produced before the Holocaust.

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●Manufactured Civil Unrest Begins:

-February 27, 1933 – Nazis burn Reichstag building to create crisis atmosphere.
-February 28, 1933 – Emergency powers granted to Hitler as a result of the Reichstag fire.

-On the night of November 9, 1938, into the next day, known as “Kristallnacht” or “The Night of Broken Glass”, massive rioting and attack on the Jews erupted after Herschel Grynszpan, a 17 year old Jew living in Paris, shot and killed a member of the German Embassy staff there in retaliation for the poor treatment his father and his family suffered at the hands of the Nazis in Germany. For Adolf Hitler and Propaganda Minister Joseph Goebbels, the shooting in Paris provided an opportunity to incite Germans to “rise in bloody vengeance against the Jews.”

On November 9, mob violence broke out as German police stood by and crowds of spectators watched. Nazi storm troopers along with members of the SS and Hitler Youth beat and murdered Jews, broke into and wrecked Jewish homes, and brutalized Jewish women and children.
All over Germany, Austria and other Nazi controlled areas, Jewish shops and department stores had their windows smashed and contents destroyed. Synagogues were especially targeted for vandalism, including desecration of sacred Torah scrolls. Hundreds of synagogues were systematically burned while local fire departments stood by or simply prevented the fire from spreading to surrounding buildings.
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●There was political movement to replace existing law enforcement structure with a new, progressive alternative:

-On April 26, 1933 – The Gestapo is born, created by Hermann Göring in the German state of Prussia.
-Then, on June 30, 1934 – The Night of Long Knives occurs as Hitler, Göring and Himmler conduct a purge of the SA (storm trooper) leadership.
– Almost a month later, on July 20, 1934 – The SS (Schutzstaffel) is made an independent organization from the SA.
– On February 10, 1936 – The German Gestapo is placed above the law. -Later, in March – SS Deathshead division is established to guard concentration camps.
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1.)They were silenced.

●All historical, philosophical, and religious literature opposing the views and narrative of the Nazi Party were ordered to be destroyed: On May 10, 1933 – Burning of books in Berlin and throughout Germany.

●Only months later on October 4, 1933 – Jews are prohibited from being newspaper editors, further securing the censorship of dissenting voices.

●Years later, the free-flow of information via technology was heavily controlled: September 23, 1939 – German Jews are forbidden to own wireless (radio) sets.

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2.) They were marked.

●July 23, 1938 – Nazis order Jews over age 15 to apply for identity cards from the police, to be shown on demand to any police officer.

●October 5, 1938 – Law requires Jewish passports to be stamped with a large red “J.”

●November 23, 1939 – Yellow stars required to be worn by Polish Jews over age 10.

●September 1, 1941 – German Jews ordered to wear yellow stars.

●June 1, 1942 – Jews in France, Holland, Belgium, Croatia, Slovakia, Romania ordered to wear yellow stars.

●Many more examples including the enforcement of Jews to register businesses, property, and the census tracking of every Jewish man, woman, and their children.

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3.) They were isolated, outcast, and exiled.

● Immigrants were outlawed: On October 28, 1938 – Nazis arrest 17,000 Jews of Polish nationality living in Germany, then expel them back to Poland which refuses them entry, leaving them in ‘No-Man’s Land’ near the Polish border for several months.

● Segregated from the main education system: November 15, 1938 – Jewish pupils are expelled from all non-Jewish German schools.

●They were evicted: April 30, 1939 – Jews lose rights as tenants and are relocated into Jewish houses.

●This next phase began by imposing curfews : September 1, 1939 – Jews in Germany are forbidden to be outdoors after 8 p.m. in winter and 9 p.m. in summer.

● They were quarantined: On September 21, 1939 – Heydrich issues instructions to SS Einsatzgruppen (special action squads) in Poland regarding treatment of Jews, stating they are to be gathered into ghettos near railroads for the future “final goal.” He also orders a census and the establishment of Jewish administrative councils within the ghettos to implement Nazi policies and decrees.

●October 6, 1939 – Proclamation by Hitler on the isolation of Jews.

●October 12, 1939 – Evacuation of Jews from Vienna.

●February 12, 1940 – First deportation of German Jews into occupied Poland.

●April 30, 1940 – The Lodz Ghetto in occupied Poland is sealed off from the outside world with 230,000 Jews locked inside.

●October 22, 1940 – Deportation of 29,000 German Jews from Baden, the Saar, and Alsace-Lorraine into Vichy France.

●In November 1940- The Krakow Ghetto is sealed off containing 70,000 Jews.

●November 15, 1940 – The Warsaw Ghetto, containing over 400,000 Jews, is sealed off.

●In July 1941- Ghettos established at Kovno, Minsk, Vitebsk and Zhitomer. Also in July, the government of Vichy France seizes Jewish owned property.

●In August 1941 – Ghettos established at Bialystok and Lvov.

●September 6, 1941 – The Vilna Ghetto is established containing 40,000 Jews.

●September 17, 1941 – Beginning of general deportation of German Jews.

●November 24, 1941 – Theresienstadt Ghetto is established near Prague, Czechoslovakia. The Nazis will use it as a model ghetto for propaganda purposes.

●March 17, 1942 – The deportation of Jews from Lublin to Belzec.

●March 24, 1942 – The start of deportation of Slovak Jews to Auschwitz.

●March 27, 1942 – The start of deportation of French Jews to Auschwitz.

●April 20, 1942 – German Jews are banned from using public transportation.

●In August 1942- The start of deportations of Croatian Jews to Auschwitz.

●October 25, 1942 – Deportations of Jews from Norway to Auschwitz begin.

●December 10, 1942 – The first transport of Jews from Germany arrives at Auschwitz.

●In February 1943 – Greek Jews are ordered into ghettos.

●In March 1943 – The start of deportations of Jews from Greece to Auschwitz, lasting until August, totaling 49,900 persons.

●The list goes on and on.

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4.) They were enslaved.

●September 29, 1933 – Nazis prohibit Jews from owning land.

●March 1938- Himmler establishes Mauthausen 
concentration camp near Linz.

●April 26, 1938 – Nazis order Jews to register wealth and property.

●June 14, 1938 – Nazis order Jewish-owned businesses to register.

●July 6, 1938 – Nazis prohibited Jews from trading and providing a variety of specified commercial services, coining the term “essential workers”.

●February 21, 1939 – Nazis force Jews to hand over all gold and silver items.

●October 26, 1939 – Forced labor decree issued for Polish Jews aged 14 to 60.

●January 25, 1940 – Nazis choose the town of Oswiecim (Auschwitz) in Poland near Krakow as the site of a new concentration camp.

●March 1, 1941 – Himmler makes his first visit to Auschwitz, during which he orders Kommandant Höss to begin massive expansion, including a new compound to be built at nearby Birkenau that can hold 100,000 prisoners.

●March 7, 1941 – German Jews ordered into forced labor.

●July 21, 1941 – In occupied Poland near Lublin, Majdanek concentration camp becomes operational.

●August 26, 1941 – The Hungarian Army rounds up 18,000 Jews at Kamenets-Podolsk.

●September 18, 1942 – Reduction of food rations for Jews in Germany.

●August 26-28 1942- 7,000 Jews arrested in unoccupied France.

●In 1943 – The number of Jews killed by SS Einsatzgruppen passes one million. Nazis then use special units of slave laborers to dig up and burn the bodies to remove all traces.

●February 27, 1943 – Jews working in Berlin armaments industry are sent to Auschwitz.

●Many more to list.

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5.) They were exterminated.

●In September 1939 – Quote from Nazi newspaper, Der Stürmer, published by Julius Streicher – “The Jewish people ought to be exterminated root and branch. Then the plague of pests would have disappeared in Poland at one stroke.”

●In October 1939- Nazis begin euthanasia on sick and disabled in Germany.

●March 26, 1941 – The German Army High Command gives approval to RSHA and Heydrich on the tasks of SS murder squads (Einsatzgruppen) in occupied Poland.

●June 29/30 1941- Romanian troops conduct a pogrom against Jews in the town of Jassy, killing 10,000.

●In July 1941- As the German Army advances, SS Einsatzgruppen follow along and conduct mass murder of Jews in seized lands.

●July 25/26 1941- 3,800 Jews killed during a pogrom by Lithuanians in Kovno.

●In August 1941 – Jews in Romania forced into Transnistria. By December, 70,000 perish.

●September 3, 1941 – The first test use of Zyklon-B gas at Auschwitz.

●September 27/28 1941 – 23,000 Jews killed at Kamenets-Podolsk, in the Ukraine.

●September 29/30 1941- SS Einsatzgruppen murder 33,771 Jews at Babi Yar near Kiev.

●In October 1941 – 35,000 Jews from Odessa shot.

●In November 1941 – SS Einsatzgruppe B reports a tally of 45,476 Jews killed.


December 8, 1941 – In occupied Poland, near Lodz, Chelmno extermination camp becomes operational. Jews taken there are placed in mobile gas vans and driven to a burial place while carbon monoxide from the engine exhaust is fed into the sealed rear compartment, killing them. The first gassing victims include 5,000 Gypsies who had been deported from the Reich to Lodz.

●In January 1942 – Mass killings of Jews using Zyklon-B begin at Auschwitz-Birkenau in Bunker I (the red farmhouse) in Birkenau with the bodies being buried in mass graves in a nearby meadow.

●January 31, 1942 – SS Einsatzgruppe A reports a tally of 229,052 Jews killed.

●In March 1942 – In occupied Poland, Belzec extermination camp becomes operational. The camp is fitted with permanent gas chambers using carbon monoxide piped in from engines placed outside the chamber, but will later substitute Zyklon-B.

●May 18, 1942 – The New York Times reports on an inside page that Nazis have machine-gunned over 100,000 Jews in the Baltic states, 100,000 in Poland and twice as many in western Russia.

●June 5, 1942 – SS report 97,000 persons have been “processed” in mobile gas vans.

●June 30, 1942 – At Auschwitz, a second gas chamber, Bunker II (the white farmhouse), is made operational at Birkenau due to the number of Jews arriving.

●June 30 and July 2, 1942 – The New York Times reports via the London Daily Telegraph that over 1,000,000 Jews have already been killed by Nazis.

●July 14, 1942 – Beginning of deportation of Dutch Jews to Auschwitz.

●July 16/17, 1942 – 12,887 Jews of Paris are rounded up and sent to Drancy Internment Camp located outside the city. A total of approximately 74,000 Jews, including 11,000 children, will eventually be transported from Drancy to Auschwitz, Majdanek and Sobibor.

July 17/18, 1942 – Himmler visits Auschwitz-Birkenau for two days, inspecting all ongoing construction and expansion, then observes the extermination process from start to finish as two trainloads of Jews arrive from Holland. Kommandant Höss is then promoted. Construction includes four large gas chamber/crematories.

July 19, 1942 – Himmler orders Operation Reinhard, mass deportations of Jews in Poland to extermination camps.

July 22, 1942 – Beginning of deportations from the Warsaw Ghetto to the new extermination camp, Treblinka. Also, beginning of the deportation of Belgian Jews to Auschwitz.

July 23, 1942 – Treblinka extermination camp opened in occupied Poland, east of Warsaw. The camp is fitted with two buildings containing 10 gas chambers, each holding 200 persons. Carbon monoxide gas is piped in from engines placed outside the chamber, but Zyklon-B will later be substituted. Bodies are burned in open pits.


● September 26, 1942- cashing in possessions and valuables of Jews from Auschwitz and Majdanek. German banknotes are sent to the Reichs Bank. Foreign currency, gold, jewels and other valuables are sent to SS Headquarters of the Economic Administration. Watches, clocks and pens are distributed to troops at the front. Clothing is distributed to German families. By February 1943, over 800 boxcars of confiscated goods will have left Auschwitz.

●October 14, 1942 – Mass killing of Jews from Mizocz Ghetto in the Ukraine.

●In November 1942 – The mass killing of 170,000 Jews in the area of Bialystok.

●In December 1942 – Exterminations at Belzec cease after an estimated 600,000 Jews have been murdered. The camp is then dismantled, plowed over and planted

●March 14, 1943 – The Krakow Ghetto is liquidated.

●March 22, 1943 – Newly built gas chamber/crematory IV opens at Auschwitz.

●March 31, 1943 – Newly built gas chamber/crematory II opens at Auschwitz.

●April 4, 1943 – Newly built gas chamber/crematory V opens at Auschwitz.

●April 9, 1943 – Exterminations at Chelmno cease. The camp will be reactivated in the spring of 1944 to liquidate ghettos. In all, Chelmno will total 300,000 deaths.

●And many more to list not included.
6 million Jews and an estimated total of 17 million souls were tortured and their bodies exterminated during the Holocaust.

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● Unlike what is taught in American history schoolbooks, The United States government did much to help the evils of the Holocaust to persist by its own apathy and inaction, at best.
On January 24, 1944 – In response to political pressure to help Jews under Nazi control, President Roosevelt creates the War Refugee Board.
But before this, In November 1943 – The U.S. Congress holds hearings regarding the U.S. State Department’s inaction regarding European Jews, despite mounting reports of mass extermination. Earlier that year in April 19-30 – The Bermuda Conference occurs as representatives from the United States and Britain discuss the problem of refugees from Nazi-occupied countries, but results in inaction concerning the plight of the Jews.
More than a month before that on March 1, 1943 – In New York, American Jews hold a mass rally at Madison Square Garden to pressure the U.S. government into helping the Jews of Europe. Preceding in In February 1943 – The Romanian government proposes to the Allies the transfer of 70,000 Jews to Palestine, but receives no response from Britain or the U.S.

In Summer of 1942 – Swiss representatives of the World Jewish Congress receive information from a German industrialist regarding the Nazi plan to exterminate the Jews. They then pass the information on to London and Washington.

June 30 and July 2 – The New York Times reports via the London Daily Telegraph that over 1,000,000 Jews have already been killed by Nazis.

Many years earlier In May 1939 – The St. Louis, a ship crowded with 930 Jewish refugees, is turned away by Cuba, the United States and other countries and returns to Europe.

Going back even further to July 1938 – At Evian, France, the U.S. convenes a League of Nations conference with delegates from 32 countries to consider helping Jews fleeing Hitler, but results in inaction as no country will accept them.

Recommended: Shindler’s List, 1993, Spielberg;

Night, Elie Weisel , Hill and Wang Publishing, 1958

Sources:

https://slate.com/technology/2014/08/typhus-and-lice-in-jewish-ghettos-nazi-doctors-perverse-groupthink.html

http://www.historyplace.com/worldwar2/holocaust/timeline.html

http://ldysinger.stjohnsem.edu/ThM_599d_Beg/10_Eugenics/02_eug-steriliz-hist_annals_med.htm

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC1296317/?page=5

https://fee.org/articles/national-health-care-medicine-in-germany-1918-1945/

https://www.thenewamerican.com/culture/history/item/13286-from-healthcare-to-holocaust

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The Joy of The Creator

Every morning I awake and I look at her precious smile, and the beauty of the sunrise in her eyes, I know the Father loves me.

When she sings a song, “I Love you Mama” and tells me “Good morning” and puts her tiny hands on my forehead, and her nose to my nose, I feel the Joy of the One who created her.

My heart is so grateful. How could I ever complain?

And yet, regretfully, I do. May God grant me the power to change my ways. Out of my pattern of stress, exhaustion, and feeling overwhelmed.

Because perhaps much more than I need for Him to change my boys, and make them more loving toward eachother, make them do chores without being harassed about them, or even pick up after themselves…more than that, I need Him to change this Mama’s heart and attitudes. I need wisdom, balance, and strength. I need to seek God more in my quiet moments and be a better example to them.

Maybe I am cutting myself short. Maybe not.

I just know that today I will hang on to the gratitude of these evidences of God’s powerful love for me, and for them, and try to stay there.

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Relics: War Hero for a Day’s Wages (edited)

At night i ponder those questions -in my soon-escaping sleep
And real-er than my waking are my dreams

Head-first we dive in to tribulation
We pride-yoke our own wills and fall as the blood spills and medicate with a false pill that it’s about finding ourselves or saving the nation

But the truth stands alone and unspoken,
and seldom is counted the cost
That somewhere we’ve become broken
Unsung lies the question, Why Has Love Lost?

These are the questions i ponder,
When no longer a reason remains.
Our women clutch relics of bravery stolen by the rhythmic hammer we hate
And confusion chains heavy our children
While few rush regard to their pain.

Evil in plain sight doesn’t even need to hide
the lost mock and the pulpits lie the news isn’t news and they don’t even try

Head-first we dive in to tribulation
We pride-yoke our own wills and fall as the blood spills and medicate with a false pill that it’s about finding ourselves or resurrecting our nation

The hearts of men fail them because of fear
And the prophets cry out the end is near
Because war is unworthy when none are left free
And the march is of slaves when the wicked wage peace.

What laughter can be heard behind this madness?
We seek to send damnation to the mess,
courage to the cowardly,
And to the weary, rest
Still we search to find truth in the chaos,
What beauty can be found in despair?
For what strength would be gained and what will be lost when a treaty is signed without prayer?

Head-first we dive in to tribulation
We pride-yoke our own wills and fall as the blood spills and medicate with a false pill that it’s about finding ourselves when we can’t even awaken

TL 6/13/2013 edited 6/12/2020

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Edit to an old song

Heaven’s Reign

Was that restlessness in my heart

something I would miss

In the conflict and the questions

had my cross become a gift?

In the searching; In the pain;

at a loss Your Word remained

at the source of my surrender

I give my life to gain

After walking through the fire, will I not cry for heaven’s rain?

and when the storm has left me battered

do I not cry out for Your strength?

Does not evil seem to prosper

and the wicked charge the gates

While the good men warm their pockets

with their condemnation paid

Who is faking? raise your hand

that life is smooth as Gaza sand

whose preachers promise worries fade

and wear redemption as a masquerade

Blue-Dark-Ages

How did it pass me by unseen

that I see dimly. Even me.

Inside my fellow slaves are dead

the empty gathered in the streets

denied my Savior’s blood was red

Has death passed over Pharoh’s door

for righteous men to claim?

After walking through the fire I will cry for Heaven’s reign.

TL 12/1/2013

“Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened unto you: But rejoice, inasmuch as ye are partakers of Christ’s sufferings; that, when his glory shall be revealed, ye may be glad also with exceeding joy. If ye be reproached for the name of Christ, happy are ye; for the spirit of glory and of God resteth upon you: on their part he is evil spoken of, but on your part he is glorified.” (1 Peter 4:12-14)

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And So I Write

To put the thoughts into words. Just a jumble of flow, to leave it here and seal it. To no longer replay and relive the negative dialogs that profit nothing to my soul, that do nothing to steady my walk, that tear down my identity and true purpose. Lies that have been told to me, about me. Confusion that a man without a conscience has woven like sticky webs inside my mind. Ugliness and untruths that belong not to me but to him. That he would feel justified by having me shadowbox , dodging a dance in self defense by the fire of his twisted gaslight, absent from impact, void of effect, of meaning, and deflated from all hopes of victory. No more.

I know what you did. I am not you. I am not anything like you. Destroying another human being has never existed on the horizon of my free will or purpose. But you can’t say the same with an ounce of honesty or grit. As long as you convince yourself of the opposite, is your choice. Time will run out though.. And you lack awareness of two more things. You forget that God has seen and knows. Not your god. Not your convenient, self-made god who excuses you to harm others and live your lies. No. The Living God my Father sees you. And He knows me. You are not aware, in the depths of your deceitful devices, that your mask is see-through. And those who know the True God see it too. You are not walking in the Truth. I pray sooner than later you awaken. I pray your conscience somehow, by God’s incredible mercy, becomes regenerated and you are given a new heart and a sound mind capable of fulfilling His will instead of carrying out your selfish plans. At least and best, this beautiful child would have a true godly man in her dad.

You are not allowed to use her to hurt me. In the name of Jesus Christ, I bind every evil thing inside of you from emotionally, psychologically, or physically manipulating or harming her, and from treating her with the same contempt, disdain, and dishonor you did with me. I cut, I sever, and I break apart every net, every tie, every cord, and every yoke bar of yours off of my life and soul in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ. I am her mother, her nurturer from the womb for the rest of my years that the Lord has set. You are forbidden from treating me with scorn, spite, coldness, bitterness, and hatred, in the name of Jesus Christ, my Redeemer and my Deliverer, my Rock, my Fortress, and my Refuge.

Amen.

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Missing Heaven

Sitting here beside myself, remind myself to put to death the idols. Put to death the self. What are these roads we’ve winded on, divined upon? They’ve never led to life. Have kind of got us minded on, decided on a black screen together we’re divided on the loneliness and blinded into pride. Look up at last surrender. Weep and fall to face. Illusion confusion delusion. Let no lie replace. Take cover sister, brother, mourn. Not by sight by faith. By Truth by Love was given and not gained by human might, nor credence of condition, nor wisdom of the wise.

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Upon These Things

Dried roses

Wild horses

Sunset by the sea

Autumn leaves

Country roads

Dwell upon these things

Tears of joy

Forgiveness

Lessons yet to learn

Memories and being strong

A kind and honest word

Childhood laughter

Ocean waves

Warm spot in the sun

A place in the shade

A white-haired couple, understands

A Tender heart

Clean hands

Dragonflies

The first summer rain

And home-cooked anything

A subsiding pain

Long drive and a sad song

Healed hurts and confessed wrongs

There are things good and pure

Think upon these things

Each new morning, a promise of hope

God’s mercies undeserved

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